Miserable

Okay, i’m going to share what i feel right now. Soo Miserable. 2014 is going to be the most stressful year for me. And the year that i’ve been waiting for, since i became PCR’s student. Graduation! But nobody said it was easy. AAAAAAA! New year’s eve will come in a couple days. Oh come on nikeeeeeen. January Febuary April July and soon your graduation day on November. Ya, so how’s your TA?

Alright, I already have a topic for my final project. But I never think about it. I never continue my proposal. And I acted like I don’t care, but actualy I do care, but I just dislike the topic that I ever submitted. Regret? Oh come on. Sure.

They said, “Why did you pick that topic for your final project?” Yaa, i have a strong reason. At that time-where all of my friends so busy thinking about their final project’s topic-I have another important things to think about. Head of my major suddenly messaged me to prepare myself for something likee.. selection of best student in PCR. What? Am I that good? I felt so stresssssssssed. I wanna scream so loud and I can not enjoy my vacation anymore. What should I do? Ya I am so proud of myself, but feels like i’m not worth it sir.

Ya, I came to Mr. Jajang because i need him to help me, but he just said, “You can do it nikeen, Don’t be so stress. This is so easy” Oh sir, pleaseee.

When all of my friends stressed about their final project’s topic, I stressed about another topic. The topic for my presentation.

And then, when the day came, it was Wednesday (or sadness-day), guess what happened. Soo baaaad hahaha. Okay, bad day but still good experience. Alrite, forget it and oh i only had 1 day left to think about my final project’s topic. Okay, i admit it that i have a bad time-management. It all caused by a bad time-management -_- my bad.

So that day was Friday when the deadline of Final Project’s Topic. And you know whaat, I started to fill the final project’s topic form at 03.00 PM and at 04.00 PM it had to be done. Double u-o-double u
I had no idea about what i wrote on that form. Whatever. I wish that my lecturer denied the topic that i submitted.

And the worst day ever came, the topic accepted. Whattttheee…….. When all of my friends wished that their topic will be accepted, i wished the opposite. Gileeeee. Why? Because i have no idea about the topic I picked! The most important thing, I don’t like it. I don’t want to continue it. I wanna change it. Ya i want to. They said, if you don’t like where you are, change it. You’re not a tree. But, this is not that simple. Just.. Or maybe I just make it more complicated. Alright, another mistake. I always thinking everything’s gonna be so hard and I can’t handle it. I know what should I do right now, but… Okay let’s continue this later. Or maybe i would never continue this post hahahaha